There are a few people who ask me for advice. I give good advice. So today, not to embarrass him or anything, my Jimbo asked me for some mom advice. As usual I gave him the best I got (which is really all one can do) but here’s the thing, today I decided I should listen to my own advice…which was…we never know what we’re “supposed” to be doing even when we’re doing it. The best we can do is keep doing what we’re doing and wait for that inspiration to come, or that phone call, or whatever it is that is supposed to happen next to happen. In the meantime, do what you do and play basketball!
And with that I called the horseplace, signed up for lessons starting next week, and then dragged my a** to yoga. I’m feeling better already.
I don’t talk much about my job searching. It’s depressing at best, although……I continue to apply to at least 3-4 jobs per week. At least. Sometimes there are really perfect, work-at-home ones, or part-time ones, or even a good career one posted, I apply to them all. While it is true that I would prefer not to have to work a 9-5 or 8-5 or anything to 5 job, 5 days a week, in an office, putting on makeup everyday, I am hopeful that at some point I will get something that provides an income. (click here)
I continue to apply for 8-5 jobs, even though I don’t want them, just because I feel like I should. So if I was my child or friend asking myself what in the world is going on I would have to say that it’s not meant to be right now and just keep doing what you’re doing and whenever the right thing is ready for you, at the right time, then it’ll be right! 🙂 In the meantime, play basketball! And I will admit, I have not been playing basketball. So I’m going to start.
As I await my next inspiration my basketball this month consists of Tuesday a.m. volunteering at the middle school; next week I start horseback riding on Wednesday mornings; starting this Friday morning, for a month, I will be attending hospice “volunteer” training and in-between there I’m going to try to fit in a yoga or two, oh yea and clean the toilets when necessary. Needless to say I am not bored I just have to figure out how to manage the guilt. It’s not that I feel like I don’t deserve this life I’m living it’s more like I don’t know how to process it. I mean who knew NOT working would be so difficult.
So Jimmy, keep doing what you’re doing, and I’m going to start doing MORE than I’ve been doing and well, just do it more. And then, we will both have to see where we end up next. Until then, he needs to come here for a weekend warmup. Sunshine can cure most anything. It sure is working for me.