What do you think about this nail color?
I’m into gel nail polish now. A few weeks ago the nail people talked me into it (I didn’t know it was $20 more) but it did last a little over a week. At a volunteer training meeting this week they said our nails should always be manicured with no chipped nails or chipped polish because chips hold bacteria. So I think I have to keep doing the nails now, you know for the good of the cause. But no one has complimented me on the color. You know what? I don’t really care that no one likes it. I’m that evolved now.
You know what else I’m not fretting about? Unemployment. I am so relaxed about unemployment this time around. A few people have asked what I’m going to do. I don’t know. I don’t really care that I don’t know. I’m not worried about it. I just can’t get over the fact that I’m not worried about it…yet. I keep myself busy for sure and now I’m mixing it up (unlike before when it was too heavy on the nanny duties.) Now I’m Reiki-ing 2-3 days a week (that would be volunteering), I’m still going to work 1-1/2 days a week and might keep that up until the end of March. After that I’m planning a trip up to Mom’s. I also have lots of doctors and dentist appts to catch up on. Two crowns today (only 8 more to go) and I still run the kids around like an Uber driver, without the tips, but they seem happy about it which makes us all a little happier. I’ve even picked up some morning shifts taking them to school since Phil has been very sick (flu-ish) and get this…I’m not even going back to bed when I come home from dropping them off at 7:00 am. I’m actually staying awake and getting a little quiet time in. Okay okay, today I slept for 20 minutes on the couch but still, I’m feeling a little bit of a shift. Evolving baby.
I also have had some reinforcements and “signs” along the way that help keep me calm. That At My Pace book that I’ve mentioned before, at first made me feel like I didn’t have my life together. But… the book is in sections by age. So reading the first section where the writers are in their 30’s with their lives going well does tend to make a 50 something person feel bad. Now I’m reading essays in my age group and I must say it is encouraging reading their stories. It’s giving me confidence that my life is going to be okay. Something is going to happen.
The Reiki might be turning out to be a passion, maybe, sort of. That’s been an area in my life where I’ve always felt incomplete, the fact that I’m passion-less. You know the old, follow your passion line kinda stumps a person without a passion. But I think this Reiki thing is as close to a passion as I’ve ever had. I find it fascinating and I like to keep going (to volunteer) and seeing where it may lead. I don’t even care if it doesn’t lead anywhere, I’m just interested in it. That’s like evolved too isn’t it? It feels like it is. I’m putting it in the evolved category.
So no, I’m not worried about not working. I’m doing what I’m doing. I’m hanging in and hanging on and to reward myself I went here for an hour today:
It’s amazing what an hour at the beach at the end of a busy week can do for the soul.